Table of Contents Spring 2011

Theme: Roller Coasters: Thrill Rides and Not So Thrill Rides. Cover Image – Carnival by Angie M. Yingst Kathy Benson Reviews: A Gift of Time Essay – Sharing My Fears Along Grief’s Roller Coaster by Kristin Binder Essay – Adrenaline Overrate by Sara A. Clement Essay – Pain by Dawn Mantas Essay – She’s Up, [...]

“Carnival” Watercolor by Angie M. Yingst

About this piece:   “I have painted the image of myself in a hospital gown holding my stillborn daughter Lucia a few times, exploring it in different capacities and settings. Standing in the midst of a grey field. Another time in the sketchbook project.  It is a moment in time that seems frozen. In the [...]

Kathy Benson Reviews: A Gift of Time

A Gift of Time: Continuing Your Pregnancy When Your Baby’s Life Is Expected to Be Brief By Amy Kuebelbeck and Deborah L. Davis, Ph.D. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ This newly published book (January 2011) was written by the authors of two successful and widely read books for parents who have lost children: Waiting for Gabriel: A Story of [...]

Sharing My Fears Along Grief’s Roller Coaster by Kristin Binder

I have spent countless nights lying awake listening to the even ebb and flow of my husband’s breath beside me, just trying to pinpoint the exact moment when I first heard the clack clack clack of my car along the surface of the tracks. I like to think that I had no idea. I like [...]

Adrenaline Overrated by Sara A. Clement

As a younger person…a much younger person…I loved the thrill that is climbing the peaks of a wooden roller coaster.  I relished the wind whipping through my frizzy hair as screaming rows of teens and brave adults plummeted to depths that man could only dream of in the past as he watched eagles soar without [...]

Pain by Dawn Mantas

When I lost my son, William, at 39 weeks, I stepped across a threshold into another world – the dark side of motherhood. We carry so much when we carry life. We’re carrying death with us all the time as well. Somehow I already knew it on an intellectual level – every bit of anxiety [...]

She’s Up, She’s Down: Learning to Love the Ride by Tracy Morris

It’s not a popular stance, I know. The one where people say things like “You’ll get over it in time.” I won’t even bother with the rest of the drivel that flows your way in times of loss and recuperation. I’m fond of saying that my many losses directed me to Buddhism. It’s true, but [...]

Housekeeping by Catherine A.G. Bayly

Green, slick, crisp-brown about the edges. The white pot coated with a thin, sticky layer of dust from five years of hard living. As the leaves begin to drip and fall, circling slowly about her curves. Creeping toward an oblivion in the compost. I decide to live on the edge–giving her one more day without water. One minute [...]

Big Brown Eyes by Sarah Caito

I can’t help but to think when I look into your big brown eyes of the woman who carried you the one who gave birth to you who held you in her arms who loved you with her whole heart but made so many wrong choices I am sure she thinks of you longs for [...]

Finding Contentment in the Ride by Amy McCarter

It is day 30, and I wonder where my period has run off to. Not that I pay much attention to the calendar these days, but it seems like it has been a while. I check the calendar and count the days since the last one, passing day 25, then day 27, then 28… huh? [...]